Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Happiness

Happiness is a funny word.  Although we all have a definition of what it means, I doubt many of us would have the same definition.  Emotions are funny that way.  We use words to describe them, but we don't really know what they mean.  Maybe this is the psychologist in me coming out, but I believe emotions to be subjective.  What I label as happy, may only be your normal.  While what you label as sad, I may see as being grumpy.  This is why I hate the question, "How are you?"  How do you answer it?  Most of us will just reply with a "fine" and move on to the next topic of conversation.  I much prefer to ask the question, "What's going on in your life?"  Alas, we tend to respond blankly to that question as well though.  My point in all of this is to inform you that for the first time I feel like I am finding MY happiness, and I'm so glad that I am!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Hi My Name is Liza...

I admit it, I have an addiction.  No not to food, we already knew that one, I'm talking about another addiction...my addiction to clothes!  For being a bit of a tomboy I love my shoes, purses, and clothes!  Right now I have begun the packing process, I'll be leaving my current home and moving to who only knows where.  I don't have a job lined up yet, so I don't know what I'm going to do on July 31, but I do know that I have to be out of this apartment.  Although I'm going to hire movers to load and unload everything eventually, I am going to pack a lot of my stuff myself.  Since I'm also OCD about this that means that I want to do it all myself, and organize as I pack.  So I need to get started!

Monday, June 20, 2011

School, New Friends, and a Milestone

Greetings Interweb!  So I know, yesterday was Sunday...and three weeks from my last weigh in.  Oops!  Well here comes the favorite excuse for posting things late on here, I've been busy with school.  (Are you all ready for me to graduate yet? lol)  Wednesday I got back home from my short visit with family, and Friday I began the last class of my graduate school career!  Here's the kicker about the class though, it's only 20 days long, no weekends off, and the professor is trying to fit everything I think she would teach in a 16 week course in this class!  I fully expect to have no hair at the end of this class.  So I'll try to keep up here, but I make no promises when I have those deadlines.  Not to mention I still have work to do to complete my classes that were supposed to end the first week in May!  Ahhhh!!!!  So here is what I'm proposing, a new goal.  To have all schoolwork completed and turned in by August 15.  Mainly this goal is to just keep me in check so that I can be sure to graduate!  The good news is though that I am so close to finishing, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!!!!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Thinking is a Dangerous Hobby...Day 104

After having been at home, and visiting with friends I began to think.  This can be a dangerous hobby for me because I tend to over-analyze things, danger of my profession.  None-the-less I began thinking about my future, which also led to memories from my past.  Now I'd going to try and keep this post as un-random as possible, but with me you never know where I'm going to go.  =)

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Best Day in a Long Time

So yesterday was the big day, my first 5K!!!  As stated many times before, it was never about the time it took me to complete it, it was always about just completing the race.  I did that, and a little more!  The great thing is that the race was just the beginning of my Great Day!  After running I got to spend the rest of my day with a high school friend as we went to a Greek festival, and the theater to see Shrek the Musical!  All right I'll start at the beginning.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Dieting Versus dieting

There must be something in the air this time of year.  In the span of four days, three of my friends have said that they are at a point where they are ready to make better choices and lose weight.  This is huge, and I can't say how proud of these friends I am!  The first hurdle is actually wanting that change for yourself.  As I've said before, I've tried this path before, but for the first time it's sticking because I am really ready to embrace this change for the first time.  What I mean when I say this is that this is not a short term Diet where I only eat grapefruit for two weeks and lose massive amounts of weight because of that before I go back to Big Mac's and Ben & Jerry's.  (Okay first time I've even though about Ben & Jerry's since I began, and now I desperately want some Phish Food!!!!)  This is a major life change, you are changing your lifestyle for the rest of your life and that's a big deal!  These friends are going to be doing different things to achieve their weight loss goals, and if they work for them more power to them.  I thought I would share my own thoughts and opinions though and explain why I do what I do.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Preperations

Today I did my last BIG run before my 5K on Saturday.  5 miles, in 1 hour!  Okay first of all I know a lot of people might be thinking, "5 miles isn't that long of a run", and "really she has to pump herself up for a 5K?"  Well I have two answers for you, first while 5 miles may not be that far for you, for me it's currently my furthest limit.  I can't seem to break past it, I get too worn out.  So for me 5 miles is my long run since I normally only do 3.5.  Second, yes I really do have to pump myself up for a 5K.  For those of you who don't know me personally, this is a big deal for me.  I've lost 25 pounds, changed my diet, and outlook on life, and I have to battle myself daily to get anything done.  Since I have to pump myself up for what many people think are the little things in life, I'm of course going to have to pump myself up to do something as big as running a 5K, not to mention my FIRST 5K!  I'm a little scared, a lot anxious, and quite excited, but I have to keep all those emotions in check until after the race, if I let them run around now who knows if I'll get to the finish line!

Friday, June 3, 2011

Better, but Still Not Great

I have three things to tell you about today, I'm gonna be short, sweet, and to the point.  First, I'm running again.  Yesterday and today I got my butt over to the gym and ran on the elliptical.  Yay!!!  So it's not easy, and I still am at a point with it where I just want to stop after ten minutes, but I'm doing it, and I know it will get easier again if I keep going.

Second, I registered for my first 5K!!!!!!  On June 11th in Lexington, Kentucky I will be running my first 3.1 miles in a race!!!  I'm so excited, and scared at the same time!  After my slip I feel like I might not be ready, but I also know that I don't think I'm ever going to feel ready.  I just have to do the first one, and I'll be happy if I can just cross the finish line.  I'm not going to worry about times, or pacing, this first one is going to just be to do it!  Hopefully some friends and family are going to go with me to cheer me on, so I imagine there will be pictures!

Finally I'm sure you've noticed some changes on the blog.  I added many of my favorite quotes to the sidebar.  Sometimes something as simple as a few words can make you feel better when you're feeling down.  So since I was feeling down I put these up here, not only to remind me, but to hopefully encourage you as well.  =)

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

There Will Be Ups and Downs

I admit it, I don't put everything up about this journey on this blog.  You knew that already though.  I mean we all don't share everything about ourselves with people the first time we meet them.  If we did, those people wouldn't be talking to us for very long!  The truth is that even though I share a lot about what I'm doing with you all, I still keep some things private.  Call it what you will, but I tend to think of it as self preservation.