Starving Children in China

I think every person heard as a child their parent tell them, "Finish your dinner, there are starving children in China who would love to have that food!"  I know I heard that growing up.  Although parents are doing their best to get kids to eat a healthy balanced meal, telling children this has it's negative effects too.  When you are full, you should stop eating...period.  As a child though many times adult sized portions are placed in front of us and we are expected to eat it.

Things are Changing

Happy New Year!!!!  All right I know, it's halfway into the first month of the year and here I am just now blogging to you again.  I promise I have a good excuse.  First though I hope that everyone had an enjoyable, safe, and wonderful New Year's.  I spent mine with my parents, kitty, and Dick Clark's New Year's Rockin' Eve.  Although not how I had envisioned spending it, still enjoyable.  Kissing your parents at midnight though at my age isn't exactly who I want to smooch!  Anyways, on to the excuses, lol.

Climbing A Rope

There are days I wake up and I hate being an adult.  I know it seems a little cliche, but life really was a lot easier when I was a teenager.  You never would have convinced me of that though.  Hindsight really is 20/20.  Today I paid my bills, and I realized although I've loved the fact that I've had time off because the kids at school are on vacation, this also meant that I didn't get paid.  I'm literally broke for the first time in my life, and I hate it.  Although my parents are helping how they can, I hate asking.  I just feel so helpless.

The Clocks Ticking Down

I have this thing, every year at about this time I begin to look back at what I did and think "I need to finish something big I started."  I feel like a bit of a failure if I didn't meet a New Years resolution, accomplish a huge task everyone recognized, or finish that paper so I'd receive my Master's (yeah, yeah, yeah I know!).  So I begin a mad dash and end up pulling my hair out for the last weeks of the year because I don't think I did anything of value, because I didn't finish anything big.  Well like a lot of things I've done this year, I'm going to look at things a little differently right now.

Chocolate Pudding

I found a cartoon recently that had a picture of a man standing in the kitchen stirring a pot, with his wife walking in behind him.  She asks him, "Why are you making pudding at 4 in the morning?"  His response..."Because I've lost control of my life."  Although I'm not making batches of pudding at 4am, I have lost a bit of control over my life.  I thought that when I went on my trip I would be able to figure everything out, I'd know where I was going, and what I was going to do.  That magically everything would fall into place and by the end of the trip I would have a job, and know when I would be moving.  I don't though, I still don't know where I'm going, or what I'm doing.

Sing For Me

I don't think I can fully explain how much this song means to me.  It has so many different meanings, and when I saw the music video I not only actually cried, but I watched it multiple times again and again.  Yellowcard has been one of my favorite bands for a long time.  I hope you'll take the time to listen to this song, and really hear what it is saying.  My favorite line..."Follow your heart it's never wrong".  I should really do that more often.  Just a little inspiration tonight.  =)

Even a Small Step is a Step

Well it may not be in Colorado, it may not be a lot of hours, and it may not pay me enough, but I finally got a job.  One that's even in my field!  I'm going to be working with an after school program, and eventually the job will be working with the schools during the day as well.  For now though it's just going to be three hours after school till parents pick the kids up, helping with homework, and finding activities for them to do.  To be honest although I'm glad I found something, I'm still upset because it's still not enough to live on.  I'll still have to live with my parents, and drive the half-hour to forty-five minutes to get to the school I'll be working at.  I'll barely make enough to cover my bills, yet alone save anything.  The saving grace is that it's not flipping burgers at McD's but something that I know I will enjoy, is with a national organization where there is a hope that I'll be able to move up in the company, and will give me work experience within my field that I haven't had in the past two years.